Debt Free is the Way to Be.

I am on my way to becoming debt free. If I am trying to have a better, new life, I guess that means that I should take care of my finances as well.

I need to give a shout out to Pohai. She has been so awesome in helping implement a budget. We have figured out all my bills and she has set up a plan to get them all paid for. It should take a year. That is probably the most exciting thing that I have ever heard.

It has been hard sticking to my budget. I haven't actually messed it up but everyday at work people go to yummy places to eat and I have to say no. Not only is this helping me financially but it is helping me with my weight loss goals as well. It is helping to eat better. We have been eating at home every night and I have been taking my lunch to work. (Side note- I have lost 7 pounds!)

I am going to be pretty low on funds for a while but it is definitely going to pay off. I know that everything takes time and it is hard but I know that everything has a purpose and in the end, it is all for the best. This may seem like a trial that I have to go through but what it really is, is just doing something that I haven't ever done before so it seems hard and it seems like something that I can't do. Well guess what?- I can do it. I am doing it!

4 Down...

4 pounds down and counting. That isn't a lot but it makes me so happy. We currently have lost our trainer at work and so we are just working out on our own. The HR manager put up some circuit trainings that we have been doing. They are pretty tough but well worth it. My body is killing thats for sure!

One of the best things about working out is that it takes my mind of the stresses of life. It makes me focus on working on my body and that is all. Of course once the session is over I go back to my worrisome self. I told a friend of mine that a New Years resolution that I have is to worry less. Let me tell you, that is hard!

I can already feel my confidence growing. I have been more happy with myself again too. That is really what I want to accomplish from all of this. I need to be happy with me before I can get anything else done in life. A person can have tons of money and tons of friends but are they truly happy with themselves? I am not sure that is always the case. Inner happiness is such an important factor in life. I don't think that I would truly be able to get anything done if I wasn't happy. I would just go through life with a blank stare on my face. Nothing would phase me and I would just be there taking up space. I cannot become that. I need to be happy and right now I can say that I am really on my way to being fully happy. Certainly, there are things in life that I still want that will make me even more happy but when I say that I am fully happy, I mean that I am becoming fully happy with myself and that feels great!

I kind of feel that I am just rambling on and that none of this makes sense but this is what is in my mind and so that is what I put down here for all to see. I like to think that I am an open person but a lot of times there are thoughts that I have that kept inside. Now, they aren't. This is my place to share all of those.

Day One Over

Today was the first day of boot camp. It was actually a lot better than I thought that it was going to be. All day I was pretty anxious as to what was going to happen. I heard that we were going to do an assessment and I can handle that, its just that I was told that we were going to run a mile. Oh heck, I was not ready for that! We didn't end up having to run though so I was happy about that.

During the assessment, we had to do push ups, crunches, lunges, squats and box jumps. We just had to see how much we could do of each. I think that I did pretty well. It was a little tough. Well, the lunges were the hardest thing. I don't like those at all. I know that my thighs don't like them either. They are so sore right now. That is a good thing of course but it is going to take time to get used to having a sore body.

We also had to do cardio which was us running up and down the stairs at work. Three stories worth. We had to do that for 5 minutes. That doesn't sound like a long time but having to do it after the assessment made it a little difficult. While running, I felt like I was going to die and I started to doubt why I was doing boot camp. I can't do that. I need to stick to this. After class was over, I realized that it was not bad at all. I know that I can do this and I am excited to get to class tomorrow. I am going to have to tell myself everyday that all of this is worth it no matter how tough it may seem.

We took measurements today. I weigh 273lbs. If my plan goes the way that I want it to, I should be at 173lbs pretty soon. I am hoping sooner than later but it is going to take time for sure. I need to be patient. We had our chest measured as well as our arms, calves, thighs, and waist. I hope to see results soon. I know that I am going to try my hardest to do this.

New Beginnings

As the new year is arriving soon, I have decided to make a blog (Yes,I am finally joining the millions who have blogs). I am making this blog to have a place to share my accomplishments and thoughts. Lately, I have been thinking that I need to improve. I need to be a better person. And I feel that this year, 2011, is my year to become a new me.

Anyone that knows me, knows that the thing that I want most in life is to get married. Lately, that desire has gotten a lot stronger (if that is even possible...). I feel that I need to work on myself though before I am able to meet the man who is to be my eternal companion. There are things that I want in a companion but if I am not fulfilling those things, then I am not going to get a person who has those traits. I want to share somethings that I want to work on.

My work has a program called "Your Life". Basically it is a boot camp. A personal trainer comes in and works out with us. This is all a voluntary program. I haven't ever wanted to do this before because I'm not really one for working out or dieting. (Ugh, to even think about it makes me freak out.) I have set a goal with myself to lose 100lbs by my birthday. I have 5 months. I don't know that 5 months is enough time to lose that much weight but when I made this goal it was 3 months prior to now. Only now am I getting around to trying to accomplish this goal. I start this program at work on Tuesday. The first day, I set up plans with the trainer. Her name is Queen. I haven't ever really talked to her before but I have heard that she is a very cool person. I am excited to meet her and I am ready to get going on this.

Becoming a better person physically isn't all that I want to do. I want to have a stronger relationship with my Heavenly Father. I want to build my testimony stronger as well. I do have a strong testimony now but I need to be better at attending church and reading my scriptures and praying. My goal is start waking up before I have to get ready for work and start reading my scriptures before my day begins. I believe this will help me to have a better day and a better attitude through out the day. A person recommended that I read the book called "The Continuous Atonement". I am going to start reading this as well. It is a book that shows how one can become a better more Christ like person through the atonement. I am excited to get this book and to start learning from it.

Another well known fact about me is that I can have quite the attitude. This has been a very prominent thought in my mind the past few weeks. This is why I have decided most of all that I need to change. I need to just a nicer person. I need to think before I speak and I need to be less judgmental. The person that I am going to marry could be around me anywhere. Now why would they want to be with such a rude person. They wouldn't. I don't want to be a rude person and I am not meaning to be one. However, it does come off that way a lot. To those of you reading, if I have ever been mean or rude to you, know that I am truly sorry and that I never meant to act that way towards you.