4 Down...

4 pounds down and counting. That isn't a lot but it makes me so happy. We currently have lost our trainer at work and so we are just working out on our own. The HR manager put up some circuit trainings that we have been doing. They are pretty tough but well worth it. My body is killing thats for sure!

One of the best things about working out is that it takes my mind of the stresses of life. It makes me focus on working on my body and that is all. Of course once the session is over I go back to my worrisome self. I told a friend of mine that a New Years resolution that I have is to worry less. Let me tell you, that is hard!

I can already feel my confidence growing. I have been more happy with myself again too. That is really what I want to accomplish from all of this. I need to be happy with me before I can get anything else done in life. A person can have tons of money and tons of friends but are they truly happy with themselves? I am not sure that is always the case. Inner happiness is such an important factor in life. I don't think that I would truly be able to get anything done if I wasn't happy. I would just go through life with a blank stare on my face. Nothing would phase me and I would just be there taking up space. I cannot become that. I need to be happy and right now I can say that I am really on my way to being fully happy. Certainly, there are things in life that I still want that will make me even more happy but when I say that I am fully happy, I mean that I am becoming fully happy with myself and that feels great!

I kind of feel that I am just rambling on and that none of this makes sense but this is what is in my mind and so that is what I put down here for all to see. I like to think that I am an open person but a lot of times there are thoughts that I have that kept inside. Now, they aren't. This is my place to share all of those.